in so many ways u love me just as i am not as i should b

please pray for

2006-08-02T09:15:00.000+12:00

please pray for my unty and uncle and family over there in australia as we where hit with some bad news this sunday night late nz time one of my cousins are in hospital fighting for his life after a horrible accident and also grieving for a , cousin, father, husband, son, uncle as he was killed in the accident when a trucj landed him on the kar and got chopped in half and died instantly so it is a hard time for the family right now so yeah please pray it would be muchly appreciated at this time.

south islad famour oh yeah

2006-07-25T11:56:00.000+12:00

yay on the 30th august all of us musical students at vision college are going to be leaving chch in a mini van oh yeah go the mini van and we are going to be on a tour of the south island we are going to be going to dunners oh yeah hmmm not lol queenstown (hope we will have some spare time to go skiiing) (but very very unlickly) and wanaka we gunna need thermals for that and other places we are going to be away for 7 days i am sooo excited i can not wait i have not even got any songs planned yeah oh well, i will do soon, we are going to be performing at schools and pubs, well at least we will be gud if we are playing at the pubs coz most people will hopfully be to drunk to notice to they will love it or just getting there so they will think it is great so i guess that is one of the ups about being going to be performing in a pub ae, but still freaky , hmmm stage fright and there will be students at schools ummm yeah as long as they have a ceiling that i can look at or it would be one strange school if they dont have a roof ae ,well i might be doing one song from evanesence that i know of so far woow that is going to be really really hard work ae
i am over and out for now i will update later till then b gud if i cant lol jjkx

hey there

2006-07-04T14:15:00.000+12:00

yay ma concert is now over and done with oh yeah
now i have to prepare for the other one in another like 5 months time and it is going to be 6 songs and also we are going to be doing a tour of the south island man that will be sooo fun but very cold as it will still be winter when we are doing our tours
and i found out bad news that some one in my family has cancer
well i am off now byebye

no more sleeps till my concert!!!

2006-06-28T12:37:00.000+12:00

hey there i am going to be doing my concert tonight and i am nervous as hell i get major stage firght and anxity so this could be intersting i am taking a break at the moment as i have been busy practicing all day today and yeah more to come :O lol oh well i guess it will be fun to watch and to do my real performance if you get what i mean like out of church and that any ways there will be kewl lights well i best be off got more to do ,
wish me luck
jazz

2006-06-21T10:57:00.000+12:00

lol a beautifull pic of me not at koru

5sleeps to go until my concert!!!!

2006-06-21T10:44:00.000+12:00

hey there people
only 5 more sleeps until i perfrom in a midd year concert.
nervs are starting to kick in wow and stress over the whole thing
just as well we go on a little holiday to hamner after it i will need it,
well at least i get to do a concert i mean it has allways been my dream to be a singer and wow i can say i am living the dream now well sort of and the experince is amazing alot of people just think you know it is a peice of cake but no u have to work at it for ages and ages and yeah and then there is alot of hard work and stress put in to it and there is alot of positive and negative feed back but u need to take the negative to turn in to the positive by taking what u need to do and then do it and you will imrpove and yeah. well i am off for more concert reheresals .
hope to hear from you guys.

over and out jazz

CONCERT AND AUSTRALIA

2006-06-02T11:20:00.000+12:00

Hey there yay i am going to be going to australia at the end of the year for about two weeks i am going to be going on the 19th of december and then i am going to be flying back on the 2nd of janurary so if any one wants any jobs done in exchange for a little bit of cash so that i can put it away for towards my trip please let me know.

and yay i am going to be doing my concert on the 28th of june at vision college in the shed and it is free of charge and it is next to the big blue building down manchester street acrosss the road from the christchurch acadamy. it starts at seven pm and is going to be finishing at nine thirty pm and it should be good there will be lots of performers.

argh but i have horrible stage fright and i am going to be on stage for the last performance for the night and it will be for all four songs so that means i will be on stage for about twenty minutes straight talk about stage fright, and in a few hours i am going to be going on stage and performing two of the four songs that i am going to be singing at the concert infront of people oh lol. i am going to be doing today: someones watching over me and everything im not

hey

2006-05-25T11:03:00.000+12:00

hey there people

woow omg i am going to be doing a concert at the end of june and i still have three of the songs to ace and i get terrible stage fright and at least when it is done it will be over and done with though i guess but still it is going to be freaky i am going to be performing ; angel from amanda perrez and someones watching over me by hillary duff and also rise in me from satellite and everything im not from the veronicas it will be exciting my first kind of real concert yay umm any suggestions though for getting rid of stage fright that is somthing that i suffer from terribly and i shake and get nervous even when i am just performing in front of my class mates a, oh well i guess it has to be done and i also have to perfrom and we do another concert at the end of the year and that time it will be six songs that is right i am going to have to go on to stage for a extra bit longer oh dear i will live though i guess a yay but i can not wait for the concert either

i am off now i will update again some time

yay and nay

2006-05-24T13:07:00.000+12:00

hey there poeple
sorry that i have not wriiten on my blog for a very long time i have been very busy with college things at the moment as we are going to be having a concert comming up some time soon yay not i get very terrible stage fright argh not kewl.

and i found out the other day that my uncle has skin cancer and that he went in for surgary on monday to have it removed as much as they could remove from him and i hope in went sucessfull i have not found out anything as i have not been contacted so i think everythign went well,

yay i am going to be going on holiday to australia at the end of the year again this time for three weeks yay i can not wait ae.

please just read

2006-04-19T02:07:00.000+12:00

hey there
happy easter every body.
lol sorry its a bit late oh well belated happy easter,
yay easter camp has been but sadly got another year to wait until easter camp 07 i dont quite think i will start counting down the sleeps until camp yeat.
it was awsum i loved easter camp it was awsum the woship was great, the speakers where great and i made a lot of new friends, but they neededd more vegies nd fruit there.
at camp me and eulalia took the stand to let jesus in to our hearts after a tough year of wht i been threw i have realised that christ does still love me even though i a, not as people think i should be , we are all perfict in the eyes of the lord, there is one thing i am proud about when i was at camp i decided to give to god the one battle i stoped battling and gave up at camp BULIMIA i am so glad to have givin that up instead it got replaced with 4 broken bones in my right arm but that is temperaraly going to b in my life and broken bones heal in time and so do broken hearts.
one of the things at eastercamp was hearing about how people have had visions and done somthing to help people out and it was good to hear that there are people out there who do things for the lord

2006-04-07T19:35:00.000+12:00

wow today i spent about 5 hours at the church painting our banner for easter camp and i reacon all the hard work has paid off it look fantastic to the days i was all hyped up about it when i had finished . yay i can not wait for easter camp another 5days to go yay thursday is going to b slow say until i get there i love eastercamp , i love the atmishpare and metting new people and i love the worship as well and every year they have good activites and best of all very very good speakers .

i have been busy also while i have been of collage with glandulafeaver assignments i have to write a song and alot of other ones ., also every second friday i have band rehersal with a band tht i choose who to be in it because i think it is at the end of the second semister tht we do a concert and i have to do solo singing i got told yay not.

yay i am having fun

2006-03-24T11:42:00.000+12:00

hey there peoples i am writting this as i am on a break at collage on a break]
we have been practicing a song called angel from amanda perez and preforming it today and ususually i am not as good at it is i am today and i keep improving ever time we go threw the song and i am enjoying doing this song which is great and yeah i am happy with the way it is going i thought i would let you all know ,
yay well i hopes i ace this assessment ihav a very good fealing about it i will let you know when i have done it how it went

2006-03-16T02:17:00.000+13:00

hey there people
well life is going ok i guess but it is not really getting any better but everything takes time i guess, well i have had the last two weeks of collage and it is getting boring sitting at home but i am not meant to go back while i am sorting out things with my eating disorder but it as if the music school is helping me out as music is my passion and i love it i wish i could sing all day every day even though i do mostly but you know music is my passion and i love to write songs and i love to sing it is as if it one of the two things in my life that i can use to exprese how i am fealing .

Also tonight at church we had a meeting about starting up a group for young teens starting out at intermeidate levels and there where alot of good ideas and everything and i would love to become a leader as i love to help out younger people and hang out with them and it will be good to give them a safe inviroment to hang out and learn life skills and make new friends and learn to love chirst and it wil b good to see improvment as they grow spiritly and in every day life as they prapare to step up and join in with OBY, and this is going to take a lot od prayers for us all to have paitince and that there are kids that will turn up and that we can help them out so please add this to your prayer list

62%

2006-03-13T14:16:00.000+13:00

hey there well i went to collage today and i got my test results back from the first proper solo that i did and i got 62% and really good marks on everything else it was a gud result for a first proper assessment they told me so yay i past even though i think i could have done better i sang to brick house by the commodors .
lol a crazt song way out of my vocal range i was made to do but it was fun i am still loving it at the music school:)

catch you up i will update soon

untittled

2006-03-11T17:18:00.000+13:00

hey there people

well yay i am still on the waiting list for the hostpital as u will know why if u have read my other post that i wrote it sucks man after seven years of this carry on it would b gud if it was gone, i am doing the fourty hour famine and to me it is a gus excuse so that i do not have to eat well i have no energyat the moment catchya up though just let ya know how life goin

a life long battle

2006-02-25T13:30:00.000+13:00

hey there peopl
well sos to every one at OBY if i have been really snappy towards you latley just found out some not so gud news the other day
well i have been doing bulimic behavour again for a very long time and the other day i been getting chest pains and i went to the doc and he did some blood test and he found out that my Bulimia has gotten out of control has gotten very bad and it is now putting a strain on my heart and it is starting to get life threatning an di am on the list to go to hospital and stay and get better as a impaintent but i dont want to go threw that again so if there is any one who has been threw this and would love to talk to me about it please do i want to stop this diseas that has taken over my mind and body and trying to take over my life please i wnt to stop this battel for once and for all so if u have been threw somthing and would like to help me out please emial me at:
mkafan4eva@hotmail.com

and tell me wht u can do to help please

yay wohoo

2006-02-14T23:42:00.000+13:00

hey there people
well i started at vision collage on monday man i love it there at the end of the day i want to stay there and not leave i love it to bits today we got put in to band and lucky old me got givin a solo to preform on friday argh i have never done one where i get assessed on it in my life scary ha yes yes it is i am going to be a nurvous wreak
and my great nana is still dying
oh yeah i got a tatto the other day damn so do not get one on ur lower back it hurts forever lol
on sundayi was so excited about going to be starting on monday which is now past but yeah i was really hypo it was not funny to the days
and what more can i say i love the course aND My tutors are making it so tht at the end of the year i can try and have acheived a major in voice and vocal sining

lol funny things and not so funny things

2006-01-17T23:34:00.000+13:00

well we will start of with the not so funny things:

well my great nan is still expected to pass any day now so i have allready paked my suit case coz yeah so then i willnot miss any thing out and i am very sad about it as well i have been crying lots latley.

and yeah here all the gud things

well tonight i had such a fun night me and my flat mates where bored and we where like we are so sick of the neghbours allways playing pranks on us so we where like we are going to get them back and they would have least expect it

well this is the first one that we did vey funny:

we told them that we had brought a new coffee machine and asked them if they would like us to make one and then take it over to them so what we did was half fill up a cup with hot water and then on top we put on some fluffy spray on cooking oil that looks like the stuff u put on top of a hot chocolate or somthing like that and then we sprinkeld chocolate on top of it and then we took it over there and then gave it to them and not knowing what we where up to drunk it lol was very funny to waTCH and then they chased us with it and we all ran to our rooms.

prank2:

they have glass doors for their front doors,
so when they where alseep we grabbed some lipstick and drew all over their doors and yeah we put hearts on it and to confuse them we all wrote down tht we all like one of them each and who we liked

lol thts all gud they allways do that stuff to us but we will b gud once they hav gone to work to finish of the prank even more we are going to clean it up and when they ask we will pretend we do not know what they where talking about

well tonight was the first time in ages that i have had a good time i think we should do this more often but with out the pranking

friday 13th is so real not a hoax

2006-01-14T10:21:00.000+13:00

hey there well here is my proof tht friday 13th is real

CASE 1:
when i was helping out my nana in the morning we got a phone call from the intensive care unit in gore hospital to say that my great nana is in there and is going to dir now any time in the next couple of days

i was crying all day and then at seven pm my nana rang me with some more new that now my great nana was not the only family in intensivecare unit my uncle in australia is also in intensive care unit in australia in a very critical condition

so if u thought it was all made up that the day brings luck then u will now know that obviously not

i thought i shuld let you know the truth!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-05T20:05:00.000+13:00

well i thought i would let you all know tht on the thursday night leading up to new years eve i attempted suicide and yeah i wnt in to a semi comber thing but it was un sucessfull i just want to ride my self of the pain of life i am writting this as i have also just overdosed again please do not be kind and say things like u r a good freind or a great person or u deserve to live coz i do not i do not deserve this wounderfull life god created for us all i just wnt the pain of wht i am going threw to go and i think being dead would be the best way to do it as i can not get over all the other horrible things tht i have been threw in the past so yeah um well if u see me again please do not say hello to me just ignore me and i am not saying this for attention i have been threw eating disorders and depression and tht for the last 6 years now and i just cant handle it any more and i just feal the need to give in so if u neva see me again then u will know why ok thanks for being great people to talk to and for being great friends

updates and poems

2005-12-05T15:37:00.001+13:00

POEM:

am i going back to where i was before i got well again?
hating food
hating me
being missrable
when i thought i was all better this thing comes back again it is like
a big pile of sinking sand i am stuck in
each time i go up 1 step towards freedom
i sink in another 3 steps to horror in my life
the thought last night where
how will i kill my self
drink poison
hang my self
over dose on somthing
but i did not tried the thought of suicid
thinking it would be easier off
ppl wnt miss me
thn i thnk of the pain
wn threw whn my uncle did the same
understanding the pain
i now have a nane for this thing
depression/eatingdisorder.

UPDATE:

HEY THERE AS most of you might have knowen that for a while i have not been my self and when i am in front of a plate of food i sum timezs cry coz i feal it is my owrst enimy and i have not been happy at all about things i hate going out and crying lots and not slepping at all. also with stress with other things and i have not been eating very much and lossing weight, last night i though of giving in like i attepmted last time but sumthing pulled me bck and thn i saw a show on tv about people who had killed them selves and i culd not believe that i was ready to do that last night, and this morning i wnt to the doc and he tlkd to me (b4 the show
) he weighed me and was not happy at my weight loss and things and i started crying and things like that and thn he tld me wht was going on and i did not think i could b back to b4 and now i am o n anti - depressants

hope fully i will be fealing like the oldme

updates and poems

2005-12-05T15:37:00.000+13:00

POEM:

my holiday

2005-11-28T18:07:00.000+13:00

Hey there people

I had the best holiday I have ever been on man it was fun well I am glade to be home.
We woke up at 4am every morning to do stuff and then would not get to bed to 2.20am their time which made it 5.30 am and then we would get like one and a half hours sleep but I guess that’s what happens on holiday it was so fun though well as soon as we got there as I said on my last post that wew got picked up by a rental car and then we got lost on the way to our hotel and then when I was on the way to our hotel I got a text from my mom telling me that she was there at the hotel and there was her and my brother and then I went and quickly got changed and at that stage I Was still in top and they thought I must have been crazy but I was cold and that the heat had not hit me yet and then I put on a nice blouse for hot weather and some three quarter pants and my jandels (but when I was over there I keept getting corrected as they call them thongs) but that was ok and then we went and had some lunch at the pub that was under our hotel man their feeds over there are huge as for ten dollars I got a chicken snitzle and some salad and some chips and yeah then I went on a train for the first time since what happened to my uncle and then yeah we went to toen and then I went and updated my blog as well oh yeah and it was raining but very hot to me the heat had finally hit me and then I went shopping and queens malll I think that it is called and I brought a hat and some sun glasses and then when I was in the train station when mom was getting us a ticktett for the train I was being a silly gal and then put on the sun glassess with the tags on them and the stickers lol and this guy who I did not see came over and then craked up laughing and goes “love”(another oz word) you might want to take the stickers of and I was embbarecd what a blond thing to do so I just pretended that I had done it onb purpose lol and then I saw my mate for a while who I had not seen in ages and it was cool she is moving back to live in nz where she origannly come from again I can not w8 !!!! We used to allways spennd our time together when she was here we would allways go on bike rides or go and play tennis when she gets back I will be fit again lol ,

Well on Friday I went to dream world and man was it kewl there or what I had so much fun there I loved it a I went on the log ride twice and then I went on the train around thew thing and it was kewl except the guy who made the hron thing go what ever you call it saw that I jumped when he had done it so he did it again not funny man must just be the Australian hummor and then I went and saw the animals there it was like a zoo they had this is still at dream world and I saw crocdills and saw some turttle and I held a koala and then I saw some joes not many kangaroos and then when I it was fun on the log ride I got wet from head to toe twice and thenn I want on this othere water ride which was pathetic it was like a babby ride some one pass me a bottle of milk all ready , and I went in to the big brother house man it was so nice in there house but yeah I do not think I would be able to handle living with 15People and plus they Hve cameras in the showers as well and the bath rooms , man their luxury room is like the queens room well I have not seen the queens room but I am sure im not that far off and I went on some bumper cars now I know why I do not have a licince yeat and I went to watch the tigers get feed and then I sliped over coz it was wet and I was wearing my thongs and they where wet thank goodness I was wearing my sun glassess lol so then know one knew who I was .

Then on the Saturday my auntie had her wedding it was very beautiful she had it at the beach and yeah and then the reception was fun I was dancing to alll the songs eccept the last two my feet where ready to full off

And came back today monday

i am in ozzy

2005-11-24T18:23:00.000+13:00

hey there people
well i have finnally arrived in oz
well man it was scary on the plane i hate them argh i was like man i can not wait to land and be there so the time went very slow i have had a long day i was up at 2am nz time and then got here at 10am oz time and then to tell u somthing funnyi fealt coldo so then i put a top on and was cold till the sun came out and then to make matters worse it got really hot and then we got lost on the way to the hotel it is very bealutifull over here and it is nice and hot i am going to dream world tommorrow and i caught up with my mum and i am going to see my friend today as well
and then on sat is the wedding and then we are going to the sunshine coast and then i am going to be coming back on monday i am having so much fun overf here in the little time i havr been here it is so different to nz here and it is also very beautifull and nice weather i am loving it here
well better go off and go shopping b4 i have to get in to my bus schedal i will update again soon
have fun over there in nz
lots a love
jasmine

2005-11-23T00:39:00.000+13:00

hey there am i going crazy?
well i heard this song on the radio the other day called listen to your heart
and i downloaded it yesterday and i can not stop listning to it litrly
here are the lyric bellow most of you wil know the song

I know there’s something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You’ve built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
When he’s calling for you.
Listen to your heart
There’s nothing else you can do.
I don’t know where you’re going
And I don’t know why,
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They’re swept away and nothing is what is seems,
The feeling of belonging to your dreams.

And there are voices
That want to be heard.
So much to mention
But you can’t find the words.
The scent of magic,
The beauty that’s been
When love was wilder than the wind

well i am off bye bye i wil update you soon and let you know the go in oz
lolz jazz jazz

2 days to go

2005-11-21T17:30:00.000+13:00

YAY only two days left to go and then i am going to be in australia i can not wait to go on holiday.
yay i am going to be arriving in australia at ten am their time in the morning and then we are going to hire out a car and it is going to take a hour to get to our hotel from the air port and then we are going to un pack and then i am going to meet up with my friend and then me and her are going to go to town and then i am going to meet up with my friends , at the moment i am trying to figure out what tp take on holiday with me and i am listning to elemnop 11:57 and watching home and away and writting in my blog.

i can not wait we are going to ber flying up to auckland or wellington i cant remember and then we get their at ten am their time i was very blond last night

i was re-reading the itinery and it said we leave here at 9.30 am and get there at 10am and i sent them a email saying that it can not possibly take only half a hour to get to brisbiine from nz and then after i sent it back i remembered that there is a three hour time difference
lol

got to go now i am going to update you later \jasmine

long week

2005-11-19T17:03:00.000+13:00

yay only for days to go and then i am off to oz i can not wait i am so excited yay !!!!!!!!

well i have been really sick this week and then i went to the doctor and then he told he i might have gaul stones and did a blood test and somthing showed up and then on friday i started to feal worse and then i went back to the doctor and they told me i had a kidney infection and stuff and then i went home and went ot bed and then with in a hour of waking up i was on the couch in so much pain that i could not move or breath and then my mate rang a ambulance and that and they did some test and they found out i have a diseas in my kidney and i had been pucking up for like ages and ages and then they where going to keep me in to sort it allout but it could take up to a week and i was going to oz so they gave me medication to take and they sent of a letter for me to get everything done and hopefully as soon as i get back from oz
i am excited about the trip to oz my aunti is getting married and yeah we goign and i am going to meet my mum i havem not seen her for around ten or elven years .

well better go but i will update u again soon

hey hey hey

2005-11-14T23:31:00.000+13:00

hey there

today was a bit better day kind of but still not very good though

well my grandad has lots of injurys from the car crash i will only list some but he has damaged hips and leg and his back and neck damaged wip lach and has to go to the hos each day for dressing to be changes

and with my step mum they think it might be internal bleeding in the bowels

and i cant w8 to go on holidday to oz nine days to go i think a deserved holiday

WEEKEND FULL OF BAD NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-13T09:51:00.000+13:00

HEY THERE PEOPLE

THIS WEEKEND HAS BEEN REALLY CRAP 4 ME FULL OF BAD NEWS THAT INCLUDE TO FAMILY MEMEBERS.

on friday morning at around 6am my grandad was heading of for a surf and when he was at the corner of milton st some young driver fall alsleep at the wheel and then my grandad was rushed to the hospital and now he has wip lash head injuries and a broken leg and more argh

and then to think that that is worse i just got a call a few hours ago to say that my step mum was in hospital she was rushed in there at 6.30 am this morning and they trying to firgure out what wrong with her and they put her straight on to moephine for the pain a

man this is the worst weekend of my life ever an and it sucks

CANT WAIT TO GO TO AUZIE

2005-11-12T03:58:00.000+13:00

HEY THERE PEOPLE THAT LAST POST WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SENT I MUST HAVE PICKED THAT WHEN I WAS CHOOSING A PIC TO PUT WITH THE POST AND THEN I PRESSED PASTE AND THEN I THOUGTH THAT I HAD DONE WHAT I JUST WROTE AND DELETED IT MAN AM I WRONG WHAT A NODDY A

THAT WAS A BIT FROM THE BOOK I AM WRITTING.

YAY I CANT W8 TILL GO TO AUZIE IN EXACTLEY 12 DAYS TIME AT THIS TIME OF THE MORNING 4AM I AM WILL BE BOARDING MY PLANE I HAVE NEVER BEEN ON ONE SCARY A

AND YOU PROBERLY ARE WOUNDERING WHAT I WAS DOING UP AT THIS TIME OF THE MORNING WELL I WEWNT TO BED EARLY AND THE FRONT DOOR DOWN STAIRS WAS OPEN COZ MY FLAT MATE WAQS HOME AND AT AROUND NINE THIRTY TEN PM MY NEGHBOURS DECIDED TO COME AND VISIT ME AND WOKE ME UP AND I HEV NOT BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP SINCE ARGH DAMN THEM

YAY I AM GOING TO THE BAHAMAS WHEN I HAVE FINISHED MY STUDIES NEXT YEAR I CAN HARDLY WAIT I AM SO EXCITED

GOT TO GO AND TRY SLEEP NOW

ps dont forget to leave comments ok morning jazz lol

yay cant wait to go to australia

2005-11-12T03:40:00.000+13:00

so yeah i had a horrible day then i meet this chick who seemed really nice at the time and made friends with her then meet her other friend who i also became friends with and me and her friend got on very well so then at least i had some friends i guess and i found it hard to eat in front of them so they asked me why i was not eating and then i said that i had to go to the toliet and then i went and sat on the toliet and ate my lunch and then made sure that there was no one around then i made my self sick i was also then tought how to smoke by my new friends and then it seemed cool at the time and then it started as a stress relief and then i could not stop so i had to keep it a seceret and would not smoke if any one was at home or if they where asleep and i would have my window open when i have a smook and had some incence burning away adn spray impulse into my room so then no body would know what was going on .
i guess was in the wrong crowed at school and then i started to bike so school and then when after the first day i realised that it was hard to bike coz either way i would basicly bick in to the wind some days i was lucky to just get wind on one of the ways but then coz it was not so hard i was failing my self so then i would purpsosly take all my books and stuff home which was heavy so then it would be a better workout and then people would laugh at me and say that they saw me biking home and i looked funny coz i looked exhusted and i just thought hahaha shame i am going to loose weight then i wont be so fat i will show you .

growth coaching

2005-11-11T01:19:00.001+13:00

growth coaching

2005-11-11T01:19:00.000+13:00

hey there people today was the very first time that i had ever had growth coaching and it was with anett and it was great today i relised just that there is somthing that u can do to have more personal felection time with god all you have to do is find what you would like to do when you have the relection time and then what ever you decid to do then put in to an order that suits you and then make a chart and sign it of each time that you do have reflection time so then you have a routine and then think of some one that you know and then get them to ring you each econd day and ask you how it is going and to encorouge you to to it and then do not lie to them .

today i read the word for today and it was a good story today it was about a bible being at a book shop and it was old and worn out and peole picked it up and looked at it and put it back down and it was at a book shop called somthing like: the last place for books book shop and people would just pick it up and look at it and then put it back down and then one man picked up the bible and shouted and then want to them and told them that the book was worth a million pounds and they where only going to sell it for one pund

now what happens is that we all judge people mostly by what they all look like and we all do it and we dont want to think tha we do do it but we do and when people sin we think of the worse of them rather than their inner beauty and christ died for our sins so as soon as we sin then we should ALL forget about it is it does not matter how big or small you think the sin is all sins are the same size and we are all the lords creation and we are all beautifull to him no matter what so why not lets all forget about the sin and look at their inner beauty we all have an inner bauty in all of us

hey there people

2005-11-10T10:19:00.000+13:00

hey there bloggers
hows it going out there
what have i been up to l8ly?
well i have been just at home and worked today
well i am sick which is no fun i have got glandulafeaver and tonsilightis which sucks
but life goes on
my journey with god has been bumpy this year and i still live a life to follow him any way
satin will try and turn you away from god as much as he can and it gets harder as your faith and journey with god gets moore better so what ever happens do not turn away from god
i can not w8 till i start my music school next year i am so excited
i have writtin a new song again this last month
and dontforget if you are going to go to town clubbing you dont have to drink to be happy coz most people around you are drunk any way so they will most think you are drunk too so sit back and relax and have fun
i have also started writting a book which will hopefuly be finished by the end of next year

well got to go if you readd my blog leav a comment ok

yay i am 18 and got in

2005-11-08T13:24:00.000+13:00

hey there people

yay i am now 18 about time i say i got the best birthday preasent any one could ever give me i got in to vision collage
i now have a lap top and the internet so i will be updating my blog i cant wait till the music schoolo starts next year man it is going to be so exciting that it is not funny a i cant wait i love singing yup thats right.

well this year i went out to dennies for lunch and it was kewl and then went to the fire works at brighton peir then i went out to the clubs i must say i totaly love the tree house maybe it is just because that it is a karioke bar

well got to go now leav comments
by bye for now

vis0n collage

2005-10-18T14:53:00.000+13:00

hey hey there people i have not updated my blog in ages
as some of you may allready know that i have recently auditiond to go to a music school and i find out in two weeks
if you know any one that is looking to move in to a flat any time soon please send them my way beacause we are looking for a flat mate out house is nice and tidy big rooms and great flat mates and friendly neighbours thanks

flat mate wanted

2005-10-18T14:50:00.000+13:00

Flat Mate Wanted
ASAP

male or female to live with three girls
double bed room
double garage
two bathrooms up stairs
one bathroom down stairs
sunny new house
friendly neighbour hood
95 a week + expensis

phone: 3655696
0r text: 0273336312

jess going home

2005-09-22T22:43:00.000+12:00

today was a great day me and jess moore spent it together the whole day i am goingn to miss her heaps when she goes
we went to a movie
got a portarate taken of the both of us one each
she came with me to get my hair cut
we went to the shops
watched a dvd
ate a nice roast
and wenr bowling

she not only a flat mate but a really great mate of mine

bye jess
lotsa love jasmine
good luck and hope to see you again soon

songs writting

2005-09-20T11:50:00.000+12:00

hello there again
as some of you know i have a passion for song writting and that my uncel killed him self so i worte a song about it

here it goes

i see a train coming
i want to scream of and cry
how could you do this

every day i walk past those train traks on the way to work
all the memories left behind
the scars left on my heart
to learn you where gone fror good

will miss your smile
will miss your love

see a photo of you
i want to hate you for
what you did leaving us like this
but the understanding of why you
did it brings
forgivniss to my heart

will miss your smile
will miss your love

now you are gone .

who is worship for us or god?

2005-09-17T22:22:00.000+12:00

god created us to worship him so it works both ways basicaly every one has there ups and downs all the time and worhsip is a way of god talking to you he talks to you through worshi[,
we are not to go to church just to listen to a surmin god wants us to go to get a meaning its gods way of talking to us i mean u could go to the most stupidist surmon ever but take away somthing away each person it is a diff thing,

what ab0ut personal reflection time with god
you could be serving go all day living his way you think thay god must be happy, but he also wants us to have quite time with him and spend it with him,

have a good day

who is worship for us or god?

2005-09-17T22:21:00.000+12:00

hurricane Katrina Fundraiser

2005-09-14T17:33:00.000+12:00

HELLO THERE PEOPLE OF OBY

HEY I AM ORGANSING A FUNDRAISER FOR OBY TO DO DO RIASE MONEY FOR THE VICTIMS OF HURRICANE KATRINA IT IS GOING TO BE HOPEFULLY HELD ON SATURDAY THE FIRST OF OCTOBER AND I NEED YOUR HELP
I AM GOING TO NEES VOLINTEERS TO HELP OUT WITH THINGS LIKE
FACE PAINTING
SAUSAGE SIZZLE
FUN AND GAMES
POP CORN
CAKE STALL
AND OTHER THINGS LIKE THAT

AND IF YOU HAVE SPARE FACE PAINT LAYING AROUND THAT YOU COULD GENROUSLY DONATE TOWARDS IT I WOULD BE GREAT FULL

SO IF YOU CAN HELP OUT IN SUM WAY COME ANDTALK TO ME AT CHURCH THANKS
JASMINE

heya peoples

2005-09-14T17:10:00.000+12:00

hey there peoples how is it going?
hey hey hey
jasmine is back again get ready to read!!!!!!!!!!
are you ready yeat?

hello there people well i have started my new job i get up at 5am every morning i am so tired by the end of the day i work with really neat people ay and some of the people who i work with just steal your heart but the down side about getting close to them is that you have to accept that they are gone when they die but it is a great job i love it to bits i would never change it for anything in the world.

next year i think i am going to be studying to become a rn (regesterd nurse)

well i left the telly markiting job today it was sad to go but reliving to leave as well i have mad great friends there i miss them allready we used toplay hang man and norts and crosses when the boss was not in the room hehehe we had a great time

well got to go now

please comment on my bloging i need to know what you guys think until i update have a great day time

jasmine

yay i got the job yup yup and other things

2005-09-07T10:36:00.000+12:00

yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay i got the job yay i got the job!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey there guys guess what i got the job not that you would have figured it out any ways lol

life is going good!
so what do you think of the sermon last weekend when we did the cell phone sermon it was crazy i tell you but good crazy do you know what i mean ?? i am sure u do if you where there

well recenlty at the church service we talked about journeys with faith!!!!!!!!!!
well i would have to tell you my journey with faith has been a bumpy one
i have had a few years of when i had lost faith suffering with bulimia and deppression my thoughts where i am discusting and ugly how could any body love me if i do not even love my slef?

well after long years i went to my firsy OBY camp and one of the people who talked was amy hays and her topic was trash and how lots of us think i am so ugly i will neva get a bf/gf or i am usless well that is not true every one has potentiol and she said one day that she was at parachute and she felt god telling her that he loved her and she had been through alot and then when i left that camp that was the only thing that was on my mind and then i realised that god loved me i am still stugling to accept my image and who i am it has been hard but i have found me and i know god loves me even if it does not seem like it he does.

alot us are all through different journeys some of us tough and alot of you not so tough god loves you know matter what even if you do not feel it he loves you for who you are not who you think you should be.

a few weeks ago one of my mates where in a bad accadent he had half his face ripped of and he had brocken ribbs and we lost him twice and he was brought back to life what a scary thinng to happen he is out now and living his life as normal alot of things could happen we where told he will never be the same person he was before the accadint but he still alvie no brain damage on crutches a skin graft and walking around it goes to show god is awsum.

have you ever been through hell and not understood y it has happend 2 u???????????
i have i was alllways like why did i have bulimia and deppression and i have a passsion majorly to work with people who are going through those things now and i am going to be studying nursing next year and in 5 years time i am going to be studying to work with people who go threw that every day and i am going to be understanding what they are going threw az well
it sucks that i have to wait five years before i can do that coz you have to wait five years of being cleard from a eating disorder before so that you do not full in the same trap again.

i also have a passion for music does any body know where you can get cheap piano lessions sothat i can leatn to write music to my songs?????????????????

have a good time keep you posted soon
jasmine

cant wait till this afternoon

2005-09-01T10:47:00.001+12:00

happy birthday hannah
hope you have a good day on sat hunny

lots of love allways your big sister jazzzz

yay i am going to go for my second job interview today i am soo excited that its not funny i really hope that i do get this job, i am totaly sick of the tellymarketting world if you where also a tellymarketer you would get what i mean.

yay i am going on holiday to australia on 24 nov at 4am i am excited i have never been to australia in my life not even to the north island pretty sad i know it is going to be my auntie wedding i am also going to be metting up with my friends when i am there it is going to be great.

yay simple plan concert on the 29th sep it is going to be wicked i cant wait 28 days to go yay.

cant wait till this afternoon'

2005-09-01T10:47:00.000+12:00

whats happning in my life

2005-08-31T15:39:00.001+12:00

i was sick of tellymarkitinig so i have decided to go and get a new job i went in for a interview to work in the hospital part of a rest home yesterday and guesssssssssss what ???

they rang me back today and asked me to go in for a secong interview i can hardley wait

oh yeah this is my new blog coz i dont remember my other blog log in name lol
i am sure i wrote it down any ways i have got to go now i will keep you posted
bye bye for now