in so many ways u love me just as i am not as i should b

I am a 18 year old Femal and i am at collage studying my passion to fufil my dream as having a careed in singing and song writting i am also in the worship team at opawa baptist church as a vocalist

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

lol funny things and not so funny things

well we will start of with the not so funny things:

well my great nan is still expected to pass any day now so i have allready paked my suit case coz yeah so then i willnot miss any thing out and i am very sad about it as well i have been crying lots latley.

and yeah here all the gud things

well tonight i had such a fun night me and my flat mates where bored and we where like we are so sick of the neghbours allways playing pranks on us so we where like we are going to get them back and they would have least expect it

well this is the first one that we did vey funny:

we told them that we had brought a new coffee machine and asked them if they would like us to make one and then take it over to them so what we did was half fill up a cup with hot water and then on top we put on some fluffy spray on cooking oil that looks like the stuff u put on top of a hot chocolate or somthing like that and then we sprinkeld chocolate on top of it and then we took it over there and then gave it to them and not knowing what we where up to drunk it lol was very funny to waTCH and then they chased us with it and we all ran to our rooms.


they have glass doors for their front doors,
so when they where alseep we grabbed some lipstick and drew all over their doors and yeah we put hearts on it and to confuse them we all wrote down tht we all like one of them each and who we liked

lol thts all gud they allways do that stuff to us but we will b gud once they hav gone to work to finish of the prank even more we are going to clean it up and when they ask we will pretend we do not know what they where talking about

well tonight was the first time in ages that i have had a good time i think we should do this more often but with out the pranking

Saturday, January 14, 2006

friday 13th is so real not a hoax

hey there well here is my proof tht friday 13th is real

when i was helping out my nana in the morning we got a phone call from the intensive care unit in gore hospital to say that my great nana is in there and is going to dir now any time in the next couple of days

i was crying all day and then at seven pm my nana rang me with some more new that now my great nana was not the only family in intensivecare unit my uncle in australia is also in intensive care unit in australia in a very critical condition

so if u thought it was all made up that the day brings luck then u will now know that obviously not

Thursday, January 05, 2006

i thought i shuld let you know the truth!!!!!!!!!

well i thought i would let you all know tht on the thursday night leading up to new years eve i attempted suicide and yeah i wnt in to a semi comber thing but it was un sucessfull i just want to ride my self of the pain of life i am writting this as i have also just overdosed again please do not be kind and say things like u r a good freind or a great person or u deserve to live coz i do not i do not deserve this wounderfull life god created for us all i just wnt the pain of wht i am going threw to go and i think being dead would be the best way to do it as i can not get over all the other horrible things tht i have been threw in the past so yeah um well if u see me again please do not say hello to me just ignore me and i am not saying this for attention i have been threw eating disorders and depression and tht for the last 6 years now and i just cant handle it any more and i just feal the need to give in so if u neva see me again then u will know why ok thanks for being great people to talk to and for being great friends